It’s been a busy time.

    • Anonymous
      March 11, 2008 at 7:24 am

      Hello everyone.

      I havent posted much in a while. It’s been a rough few weeks. As you may know, my mom passed away on Valentine’s Day. She lasted one week to the day when she went to the Hospice House. They had found her lung cancer had spread all over. It was and has been a very difficult time. I knew that I’d miss her. I just didnt realize how much.

      We have her house now to clear out and then sell. We havent taken anything out b/c it’s still hard to do that. I am also in the process of moving to a much bigger house that I have no idea how I’ll keep clean…:) but that’s beside the point. We’ve been doing updates to the house we’re moving into for almost two years now. Yesterday they finished laying the carpet and so now it’s time to pack. My sister and I are taking care of Moms house and the other sister from Chicago pops in every so often to stir up trouble.
      My two sisters are fighting and dont speak to each other. It makes it even worse for me to be the in between person.

      I had a breast biopsy done two weeks ago and that was found to be benign. I am surprised at how it still hurts tho and the healing is slow. Today I am going for an epidural injection in my neck for a herniated disc. I put so much off for so long b/c I wanted to be with my mom and now I am full speed ahead with my own issues.

      I spent every day since August 7th with my Mom and each of those days, Connor was with me. He talks about his Nana every day. He tells me she knocks on the window at day care and last night when my hubby couldnt find his glasses, he said, “maybe Nana wanted to borrow them”. He also asked me if God had a sling shot Nana could borrow…b/c she always tried to get the rabbits that got in her garden…and of course, she always missed. We also asked her in her final days to please send us pennies from Heaven so that we would know each time we found a shiny penny that she was thinking of us. You cant imagine how many pennies Connor is finding. He was so special to my mom b/c he was the first grandchild after 15 years. My sisters are alot older than me so it was like starting all over as a Nana for her. She spoiled him rotten. The love between them I cant even explain. I’m grateful to have had him for her to enjoy and give her reason in the final years of her life.

      I am having probs with my hands and legs these days…increased weakness and floppiness in both feet. I guess the next step is the Neuro. One doctor at a time.

      this is long enough so I’d better go…thanks for listening and being here for me.

      Best wishes.


    • March 11, 2008 at 10:17 am

      I am so glad to hear from you! For the first time in a very long time, you sound strong and positive. It seems as though a natural progression is occurring, you have turned the page in one chapter and are starting a new one. The new house although larger and more to clean, can be like a fresh new start. Your descriptions of your mothers memory and the ways that you are choosing to be reminded of her are so happy and uplifting. A shiny new penny, sounds like a happy new way of life for her and a happier memory for you, unlike the sadness you felt the last few months.

      Your posts talk about you and Connor now, you sound so proud and content when you speak of your precious little baby. I can’t wait for you to start enjoying time togetehr again. You have done a great job preserving your mothers love and memory for Connor, as well, I am sure your mother passed to a happier place with happy memories of you and Connor to cherish for eternity! How much you have accomplished in a very short time.

      I wonder if you ever stopped to think about how strong and wonderful you are? You have carried on like such a trooper. It is good news that you are now tending to yourself, I can’t wait to read posts of your improvement once you start on ivig again. Best wishes to you in the weeks to come.
      Love and admiraqtion,
      Dawn Kevies mom

    • Anonymous
      March 11, 2008 at 6:03 pm

      [FONT=Book Antiqua][SIZE=4][COLOR=Navy]Stacey,
      I am so happy to hear how you are doing. As Dawn said so beautifully, it is amazing to hear your growth and progress in this time of huge adjustments in your life. I am so glad you are focusing on yourself and your health. You so deserve the best. Please continue to let us know how you’re doing. I am not suprised to hear that you are having some floppiness. Please pace yourself with packing.
      All my best,

    • Anonymous
      March 12, 2008 at 6:29 am

      What a wonderful story about Connor and your mother – makes me wish I’d had kids after all. I’m glad to hear your biopsy was benign too, I’m sure that’s a relief to you as well. Try not to overdo things and set yourself back but I’m sure you are super-excited about moving into a new house. I’m looking forward to hearing how the move goes and if your legs can keep up with your ambition. 😉