I don’t know why I didn’t get to this post earlier but I know what you mean.
Nate had GBS December of 05, and it has affected me greatly.
He is making good progress now but still has a long way to go before he will be able to walk around unassisted, drive or get his life back.
I have gone thru a whole list of stages with him too.
I still worry that he will get sick again, fall, take too much meds, not be able to do what he needs if I’m not there,etc. I’m sure you know all of them.
My husband and I are going out of town next week for a week and I’m worried about whether or not his brother will be able to get vacation time and be here with him.
He has not found out as yet if he can get the whole week off and that makes me feel very uncomfortable.
Nate cannot be here at night by himself. He cannot do everything like lock up all the doors, take the dogs out, or water the garden and front flower garden.
I know the whole time we are gone I will be worrying about if my younger son is here and if everything is ok, if he is eating good things for him, if he remembered his meds, etc.
I wonder if I will ever not worry about him.