so lucky…

I posted the message below on the GBS-Adults forum, but thought it might be good for this one, too. i’m so glad i have a success story to share with others… 🙂

in the beginning of november 2005, my family & i went on a cruise. the first day of the 8 day trip, i fell asleep leaning over in the car seat. when i woke up, my pinky & ring toes on both feet were numb. i thought it was just the way i had been sleeping. they never recovered feeling. throughout the next 7days, the numbness progressed to all of my toes, the balls of my feet, and my ring & pinky fingers on both hands.

2 days after we got back, i made an appt with my regular doctor for a monday b/c the feelings were getting worse. they took blood & just told me to watch my symptoms. while waiting for the bloodwork that week, i got worse & worse. the numbness moved to the entire palm of both hands & my fingernails, my torso, tongue, gums & crotch were also numb. i had started to develop weakness. brushing my hair, getting in/out of bed, going up the stairs, getting in/out of my bra, carrying my 2 year old child & walking were all getting harder to do. my bloodwork came back & they told me i had mono (i remember having some upper respiratory symptoms the prior weeks, but none of the fatigue associated with mono – this was also my 2nd time having it since i had it in high school over 10 years ago).

my mom, a nurse, had been researching like crazy as my symptoms worsened & worsened. one morning that week, she called me & told me to look at the GBS website. it was as if the website was talking about me. all the symptoms i had been having were there in plain writing. that scared me so much b/c i realized just how serious it could get if GBS was what i had…

my regular doctor was still not very concerned, even when i mentioned it could be GBS & just wanted more monitoring of my symptoms, so i called a neurologist on my own. that friday, i went to the neur. & they were not ready to diagnose me yet with GBS even though i mentioned it several times. at that time, i still had my reflexes… so he ordered more bloodwork & an mri to rule out anything else neurological.

over the weekend as i waited for my bloodwork to come back & for my mri appt, everything just kept getting worse. with thanxgiving holidays that week, i was starting to feel desperate b/c no one would give me an answer & help me. my regular doctor was out of town & so was the neur. that had seen me the previous friday. i called frantically to the neur. office & forced them to read my mri results ASAP. when i finally got to speak to someone about them, i ended up breaking down over the phone with the stress of it all. he told me to come in first thing the next morning to see me before the long holiday weekend. thank goodness.

when he saw me, he almost immediately diagnosed the GBS. i could barely walk, had lost my reflexes, couldn’t feel the pinpricks in my feet & couldn’t hold any arm or leg positions when he applied pressure against me. he told me to go straight to the hospital to be admitted – don’t pass go, don’t collect $200…

that was such a relief. as scared as i was of having GBS, at least someone finally listened to me & had decided to help me. i cried as much out of relief as fear…

i was in the icu for one night, then moved to the dialysis ward for 2 more nights. i had 4 plasmaphoresis treatments & one of those electric shock tests on my legs during my stay at the hospital. the icu nurse actually laughed at me & questioned whether i was really a patient b/c she’d never had anyone walk into her ward before. my breathing was less powerful than normal, but i never had to be on a respirator, thank goodness. my stamina was completely gone. when physical therapy came by, they had me try to walk on my tiptoes & i couldn’t. they also had me walk up 6 steps – the nurse rushed to my room afterward b/c my heart rate had shot up so drastically with the effort.

it wasn’t until the beginning of february that i realized i didn’t think about my extremities anymore. previously, i was obsessed. every waking thought was about what i could or couldn’t feel with my fingers & toes (socks, shoes, pens, clothes, etc), my strength & ability (to walk, write, play with my son, go up/down the stairs, button/zip things, etc), & when it was going to go away…

i feel really blessed & i feel that God was completely the reason i am here & feeling like i am perfectly back to normal. the way some people’s cases start over a few hours or days & progress to a coma, i am so thankful that didn’t happen to me. on our cruise, we went to belize. if i had been stuck there with GBS, who knows what would’ve happened. my case was slow progressing so i had enough time to get back to the US & find a dr who knew what he was talking about. also, my body responded so well to the treatments. just that week, they had 2 other cases of GBS that came in to the hospital after me & they were much worse (respirators required).

thanx for letting me share my story & hopefully it will help give someone hope that complete recovery is possible. sometimes i feel bad b/c i didn’t get it as bad as others, but then i just feel blessed b/c my 2 year old & husband still have me as i always was – healthy…