I want to cry this morning!

    • Anonymous
      May 4, 2009 at 6:03 am

      Looks like my day is going to be interesting. I am having a horrible morning after having a horrible night. My lupus is acting up something terrible which is scaring me. Last night I laid in bed and my left leg kept going completely dead causing me to wake up every half hour jiggling my toes in hopes for it to wake up. Pain on the top of my foot which felt like nerve pain. Tightness in my chest and that might be my hernia acting up because everything else is!
      When I got up to go to the bathroom early this morning, I almost fell because my leg was so weak feeling. I have been in a lupus flare for over a month now. One day it feels like I am coming out of the flare then two days I am sick.
      And I overdid yesterday too! Decided to can my homemade Chicken Noodle Soup and have been canning things last week too. Have a goal for 365 cans this year to go into my food pantry. Spreading this all out during the spring and summer months.
      I did 18 pints of that soup base! When you open it up you delute it like a regular can of soup and it turns out to be a quart for two people. So my body right now is saying NO NO! My goal was for 100 jars before June! Well I am close! Now have 90 cans done. And was thinking about doing more than 100 if I felt like doing it before June! I wait until the weekend when Andy is home so he can help me with the huge pots of water and tightening the lids.
      But I was on my feet all day yesterday stirring and cooking.
      Supposed to take my mom out today too to pick up her meds. And I don’t know if that is going to happen today unless my meds kick in and make me feel better. Right now I am slumped over in my chair like an old lady with back problems.
      I hate Lupus and I hate CIDP! I am having a pity party this morning! But I will get over it like I always do. Just hate when I feel like crap! So if I do take my mom out today, I see it’s going to be nothing but a struggle. Total struggle! Only problem is she needs her meds. I just hope I don’t get out with her and end up having to call an ambulance and land myself in the ER. Only thing they will do is dope me up and send me back home to suffer referring me back to my specialist!
      Maybe I should call my brother in law and see if he will do it for me today. Just my luck he has things planned! My husband has to work today too and can’t take off! Please pray my meds end up kicking in this morning so I can function! For right now I just can’t function worth a flip!
      Well maybe I will go get in the tub and soak in some hot water and see if that will help too. Right now I feel like taking a chain saw to that leg and chopping it off doing away with it! LOL! But it will only end up going somewhere else! So you are deed if you do and deed if you don’t.
      Getting offline now and jumping in that tub. I need refreshment. Better yet I need a whole body transplant. A complete makeover! Hugs
      Linda H

    • Anonymous
      May 4, 2009 at 10:41 am

      I know what it is like to have crappy mornings. I get them and have pity parties too. I think you should tell the brother-in-law to go get mom’s pills and go take a loooong soak in the tub, you deserve it after all the work you did with canning. My gosh, I can’t believe you are doing so much. We all have our bad days and deserve to have pity parties once in awhile. I have CIDP and sometimes just sit down and cry when I get feeling bad. Afterwards I feel better. I will pray for you and hope your leg feels better. Hugs to you also:) .
      Clare in Michigan.

    • Anonymous
      May 4, 2009 at 6:15 pm

      Linda, just read your post and said a prayer for you for healing.

    • Anonymous
      May 4, 2009 at 7:19 pm

      I’m sorry to learn you had such a bad start to your day.:( To say life can be challenging sometimes is a real understatement!:rolleyes: 😮 I hope you’re feeling better this evening and that your mom got her meds somehow. I’m sending good thoughts and hugs your way!

    • Anonymous
      May 4, 2009 at 10:52 pm

      Luckily, each day is a fresh start! Hoping tomorrow is a much better day for you, Linda!

    • Anonymous
      May 5, 2009 at 7:51 am

      Well my mom got taken out by my brother in law yesterday after calling him. Asthma kicked in to yesterday so I had a poor quality breathing day! did nothing all day long and going to rest alot today too! Called my doctor’s office yesterday too and he wants to see me Wednesday. Did sleep a little better last night but not by much! Maybe another day or two of resting will help.
      Plus today is a much cooler day. The heat for some reason makes me bad of every year. Wonder why the heat bothers me with this nerve damage and asthma. Every year I get bad off and it’s always around the same time frame.
      But I am a bit better today. Still icky but resting and taking it easy a few days.
      Linda H