[QUOTE=micahsmom]… HOWEVER, i can’t get passed the depression of it all. … i don’t know if it’s fear or if it’s just the reminder that i have this condition…
i am so scared that in a few years i will have a relapse or what happens when i am older and i can’t take care of myself?…
… [COLOR=”Green”][B][U]i am now back to work and walking[/U][/B][/COLOR]…
…i just can’t get past the fear of thinking that i have this forever…[/QUOTE]
It is probably quite normal to experience the full range of feelings with this, or any illness, or death in the family. This is sometimes referred to as the grieving process.
There are probably lots of ways to say it, and live it. Here are 4 ways:
2. Searching and Yearning
3. Disorganization and Despair
4. Reorganization and Recovery
Some people get lost in the despair (depression) part of it. I did.
Recovery will gradually take place when you begin to cut out those negative thoughts I’ve quoted above and focus, instead, on the positive- You do have one. I highlighted it!
Notice, and immediately let go of, your negativity so you can replace it with positivity.
It takes hard work. You can do it. It’s called having fun. Ignore what you cannot do. Forget all about the glory days, focus on little successes you have now.
good luck. do what it takes.