pain, pain, brutal pain
AnonymousJune 22, 2009 at 4:06 pm
As my CIDP has progressed over the years, I have dealt with changing symptoms. I was just wondering about pain, the severity and constancy of it, and if anyone has some ideas about finding ways to deal with it.
I started out in 1989 with a little numbness. Symptoms were very slow to progress and didn’t affect my lifestyle much at all. I had a EMG, NVC done and they found a peripheral neuropathy, but not a reason why. In 1998 I got some severe headaches, went back to a new neuro who redid the tests and determined my PN was a little worse, and eliminated a lot of the usual culprits. I was having some twinging in my feet every now and again, but not bad.
In 1999 it got a little worse and I went to a University Hospital to get a diagnosis, which happened in 2000. My problems were almost totally sensory. Numbness, reflexes, not much weakness at all. The symptoms accelerated and by 2005 I was on disability.
My pain was piercing hot pains, buzzing pains, foot pains, like plantar fascitis, fatigue, foot clumsiness etc. As time has progressed my numbness has basically held steady, but the pain has become agonizing. It absolutely dominates my days.
Right now, My feet, and to a lesser degree my hands hurt constantly. I still get the sharp stabbing pains, like stepping on a nail, or like getting a cortisone shot. Big ripping blasts. I still get the buzzing, humming, burning pains that last a lot longer. The muscles in my feet feel like they draw up and lock there, and then when I get up to move, everything has to stretch out again, and it is like all the tendons are ripping apart. I can actually feel the tendon and muscles individually hurting and stretching and feeling like they are ripping apart. Every day. Many times a day. Within the last three or four months I have developed new issues. It feels like the bones in my calves are cracked. I get sharp pains zooming up the tibia and fibula in each leg.
I fatigue much faster now, and it takes longer to recover. I have lost muscle mass and am weaker. I suppose just like most of you all. But, finding a way to deal with the pain is just so challenging.
I take gabapentin for the neuropathic pains, and narcotics for the daily pain management. I am wondering about stretching, wrapping, soaking and things like that. I try to take care of myself, but I also want to live, and I want to walk as long as I can. I know I will eventually be wheelchair all of the time (maybe 25% wheelchair now), but I want to stay as functional as possible as long as possible.
Any Suggestions ??
AnonymousJune 22, 2009 at 4:24 pm
Sorry to here that Dick. I don’t know what to do about the pain, I just have it all the time I don’t know what is normal anymore. I just try to think or do something to try too keep my mind off of it. If you find out anything shout it out. I am in the 5 month on short term and i have one more month to go and if i don’t go back too work i will lose my position at work (maint) this will be a big cut in pay. Have to go back to the neuro june 29 and july 18th.
AnonymousJune 22, 2009 at 5:19 pm
Hi Dick. Your story sounds almost identical to mine. I saw a new neuro and he switched me from Gabapentin to Lyrica and that has made a difference with the stabbing pain. I don’t know which narcotic you take, but I take Darvocet and Xanax. That combination seems to work. I have not needed a wheel chair yet, but in the big shopping stores, like Walmart, I have started using the scooter. My biggest problems lately are balance and fatigue. I get my ivig every 2 weeks. Did you get ivig? I do stretching exercises and try to keep walking as much as I can. We have to beat this ugly monster……..
AnonymousJune 22, 2009 at 5:32 pm
I’m sorry about the pain Dick. I feel for you as I’m frequently in pain but not able to take any medications other than tylenol. I am sometimes able to concentrate on other things enough that the pain goes into the background but I’m sure you’ve had those ‘wake you up in the middle of the night’ zaps too that you can’t do much about. A few things work – epsom salt baths help with massive cramping if they aren’t too hot; alternating hot and cold packs sometimes helps the meningitis headaches and muscle spasms; and if all else fails there is always benedryl to make me sleep through it. But the nerve pain is pretty unrelenting and difficult to do anything about. I keep several bags of frozen peas around and numb up areas too painful which helps some but I’m looking for an answer too and not finding much out there to help. 🙁
AnonymousJune 22, 2009 at 9:24 pm
I started taking a new pill for my depression called Pristiq and I realize I couldn’t take my Lyrica with it because it was to much. I got off the Lyrica and realize the Pristiq kills the pain better then Lyrica. I am on 50 mg a day
Pristiq is made for major depression but boy do I like the fact it help my nerve pain also and works better then Lyrica.
AnonymousJune 23, 2009 at 12:56 am
I wear a strong Fentanyl patch WITH 6 IVIG infusions a month. It took 2 years of this to even get the pain down to bearable.I felt like my body was in a shredder.I can see my thigh/calf muscles “jump” after any exertion.
I stumble and feel so spacey that I get embarrassed if out in public. Had to go to a doctor’s appointment today and realized had no business being out of the house.
I used to brag that I could get a cavity filled at the dentist without any Novocaine.
I do have a decent phydiatrist/pain specialist who sorta gets what I have and gives me the necessary pain meds.
I make myself walk because I”m scared about more muscle atrophy. I found some years ago listening to enlightening CD’s on pain/stress really helped soothe. I’ll send the name of the person if you want by PM.
I know you’re hurting. Please have a talk with your doctors to see what can be done.
Best of luck.
AnonymousJune 23, 2009 at 3:26 am
Dick S! I started out in 1989 with the same symptoms. And then a year later the nerve damage had progressed. That pain you are talking about sounds identical! I describe mine as feeling like I placed my hand in the stove and forgot my dishcloth to get the hot pan out and touched the pan and got burnt! Only that the burning pain never goes away and stays over and over again.
Well you see what happened to me this past week! Landed in the ER with mine and my neuro finally decided it was time for IVIG’s. And was given pulse steroids at the same time!
They gave me a new drug called Oxycarbamezeprine. Yep! Long name! I take that with my Gabapentin now and boy does it help that bee stinging fire pan burning pain.
Flexeril also helps with those muscle spasms. That might be something also worth trying. But that Oxycarbamezprine can make you feel sleepy alot at first. But I needed that sleep! Really did!
I hope this helps some! Bless your heart! I truely feel for you Dick S!
Going through the same thing you are going through and yes! I am seeing 25 percent of a wheelchair and cruthes now too! Sucks! Really sucks!
I have a beautiful mind with all these things I want to do and this crap is keeping me from doing them!
Hope my suggestions help! Feel better soon! I know! Easier said than done! This CIDP stuff really is not fun having and I wished these scientist woud figure out a cure for us all! That to me woul be heaven! Hugs
AnonymousJune 23, 2009 at 8:19 am
I’m so sorry to hear you are agonizing. I am blessed to not have alot of pain anymore- I guess b/c the sensory loss is so severe that I dont feel anything… but I think I can relate to some of it, especially the burning.
When I had that burning in my hands, I would do anything to make it go away. All I could do was cry and pretty much panic. I held my hands under cold water and tried to trick my mind into making it work. Whatever was going on, the only thing that worked was time. I even tried wearing braces or splints on my hands at night.
Alot of prayers later, that burning hasnt happened in a while.
I might suggest the warm/cold therapy. My Dr told me to try it when I would have what I called moving pain. It would hurt in one place, then the next. Like my thumb,then the inside of it, then the hand, then the pinky finger at the tip, then the side…it was constantly moving and never staying in one place.
Try wrapping with warm cloths and then cold cloths or vice versa.
I’m sure you are pretty open with your Dr’s…let them know what you’ve told us and maybe by the grace of God, they can find something to help more.
I’m so sorry I cant wave a wand for you and make this all go away.
But, I CAN pray for you…and I will.
AnonymousJune 23, 2009 at 11:12 am
Thank you guys for your support.
I like the epsom salts idea. I can do hands and feet in a container smaller than a big bathtub. Maybe I’ll try one hand and one foot, see what difference it makes.
I take morphine everyday with percoset for breakthrough. I get a Rx for 90 tabs and it usually lasts 3 months. I might not take any for a week, and then if it gets bad, I might need 2 or 3 a day for a couple of days.
I am 51. I want to live a lot longer. All of these narcotics are taking a toll on me. I know I will need some pain medication, but I want as little as possible. As little pain as possible, and as little medication as necessary.
I like the music and meditation ideas as well. Does anybody have a meditation “method” that helps them? I have had trouble compartmentalizing the pain, it is just in too many places. I can put one foot into some comfort meditation wise, but then I get shooters in hands, legs, other foot, etc. Maybe a bigger meditation skill??
I also know that depression is hard to deal with. Chronic pain wears on me. It always hurts, every hour of every day. Sometimes it overwhelms me.
Oh well, more work for another day.
PS limekat, yes, info on CD’s stress’pain mgmt would be greatly appreciated.
AnonymousJune 24, 2009 at 9:17 pm
Another soaker to try besides epsom salts is Johnson’s Foot Soap-” Soaks Away Foot Misery” “Relieving Feet Since 1870”. It comes in boxed packets and you can find them in the pharmacy section of your store. It helps relieve my burning, not completely, but if it helps some, I’ll try anything. Johnson’s has Borax, Iodide, Bran for main ingredients. Sometimes the old simple remedies work better than the new stuff. Just passing a thought to you, sending a big hug, and offering up a prayer for you.
PS The CD’s I play on a bad days are the earthy ones-waterfalls, waves coming into shore, thunderstorms, birds singing, I play Kenny G. Anything without people singing. On a good day I play the Eagles, good and loud. You’re probably too young for the Eagles, but on a good day I surround myself with perky music. Play what relaxes you.
The relaxation therapy I use is lie on the bed; start from head and work down, including areas that don’t hurt (imagine that); trying to relax your whole body at once doesn’t work; too many areas of pain. Start with the earthy CD. Twist your head, push it against your pillow, RELAX. Go down each area, shoulder,arm, hand, individual fingers, then other side, continue to work down hips, thighs, legs, feet, each toe. Feel each muscle contract then feel each area of your body RELAX. Hard to do at first, but really works. Take a Morphine before, so that after the therapy is done (abt. 30 min.), you will be better relaxed. Give it a try Dick and see if it doesn’t help you. Others may have other suggestions, this is what is so great about the forum, someone’s words may ring a chord with you.
AnonymousJune 24, 2009 at 11:40 pm
We had a seminar at church a couple of months ago about “touch healing” As the seminar went on, I realized it was Reiki, or a very similar discipline. As we were learning, the instructor was very good at wiping away my pains. Relaxing me enough to make the big pains smaller anyway. My wife was with me, and I responded to her “energy” and she was OK at it, but I just can’t get her to do it for me at the house.
I cannot do the “tense and relax” process, I cramp up too much. I can, however relax my body good enough to get to sleep. When I wake up however, I hurt, and have to go through the same process all over again. Many times the pain wins, and I sit up for another hour until I am exhausted. Then I sleep until the pain wakes me. Some nights I wake every hour or so. A few nights I only wake once. I cannot remember the last time I slept through the night.
Regarding the Eagles. I was right there with them. But I do enjoy most Eagles stuff. Hotel Calif. is probably my fav. album from them. I went through many music phases and like it all. Hard rock, Acid rock, folk singers, acoustic stuff, orchestral, choir, New wave (but not punk) all kinds of Jazz. The old guys playing clarinet, sax, trumpet, wow. psychedelic music, NO DISCO !! I love music, and really need to sink back into some of it again. At the worst, I’ll enjoy it.
I am going to the store tomorrow for Epsom salts. I’m going to try that first. I have a little yard work to do, so I should need a good soaker afterwards.
AnonymousJune 25, 2009 at 5:36 am
Here is my relaxation technique – similar to Emma’s – I’ve been doing this since I was about 12 so my body listens now when I ask it to relax. It does take practice for your body to realize what you want but you can do it. A huge amount of this is imagination which improves with practice also.
Lie flat on the bed, close my eyes and make sure no limbs are bent. I start at my toes and imagine a cool blue light entering my toes from the very tips. As the light enters my body and seeps through my feet it brings a relaxed, cool and heavy feeling. Some days it takes longer than others for me to imagine it the light creeping up my body – if I lose my concentration I just back up, imagine the light a few inches lower and start creeping it up again. Some days I can have the light go from my toes to my head in 30 seconds but most days it takes 45 minutes or so. In the meantime as the cool blue light travels upwards it pushes the hot red light of pain out through the very top of my head. Honestly some times I don’t even make it past my hips before I’m asleep but that’s OK because if I wake up I just start imagining that blue light again slowly creeping upwards, washing away the pain and tension.
You may think it is silly but there have been multiple studies that show your perception of pain has a great deal to do with how much it affects you both psychologically and biologically. When I am in pain to the point that I feel like screaming I am sometimes able to split my brain into the part that perceives the pain which is somewhere in the background and the part that just deals with daily life anyway. It does take a bit of concentration and there are certainly days when it’s impossible – but I’ve been working on this the last three years and I’m much better about it now. It feels a little like sleepwalking if that makes any sense to you – part of my brain is just processing the pain in the background – part of my brain isn’t even noticing the pain and that’s the part I try to keep in the foreground. For daytime pain I try to concentrate on other things like drawing or reading or a good movie or my recent venture into the World of Warcraft (online computer game). Sometimes I can concentrate to the point that I don’t notice the pain and sometimes not. I find that the more I am actively using my brain the easier it is to concentrate the pain away. Passive activities tend to give my mind time to wander back to “ouch”. As for music, I listen to Enya or the sound machine turned to “ocean” so I can imagine myself at the beach. 😀
It sounds really strange when I write it all out and I feel a little crazy telling you my secret pain-control methods but it does work for me. I’m allergic to narcotics and sensitive to most drugs so I have to make my brain take over that task. It became a matter of survival so I think that may be what tipped the edge on making this work for me. I really needed it to. :p
Share what works Dick – I’m still looking for the perfect fix myself. 😉
P.S. I just saw this article – may explain why the self hypnosis works… [url]http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/31524376/ns/health-behavior/[/url]
AnonymousJune 25, 2009 at 8:30 am
Ohh how I remember my younger days! If only I could go back and do things all over! LOL! Gosh! I listened to all kinds of music back then and still have my old albums and still listen to them. The Beatles, Eagles, The Who, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Van Halen and I can’t forget The Doobie Brothers and Foghat! I was a weird one though! I listened to Linda Ronstadt, Charlie Daniels Band, Fleetwood Mac, KC and The Sunshine Band!
I love Music! I even listen to Beethoven and Bach! Yes! I like Opera Music too! So I guess we are all somewhat from that time frame of the 50’s and 60’s! A few in here older but still from that timeframe!
Dick S! I am like you! Some days when I don’t think I need the meds I don’t take it! I really don’t like taking meds anyway. But when I get bad off and can’t tolerate it anymore I have no choce but to take something!
My feet catch it alot and my hands with that burning. Last night I rubbed Jergens Lotion on my feet and there was something in that lotion that felt so good! The cooling in the lotion in Jergens has something in that lotion that really helped. Last week while I was in the hospital that burning really hurt!
This week though the burning is not as bad. Don’t know which drug helped. The pulse steroids or the IVIG’s. But one of them seened to have helped some! I feel better today than I have in a while! Not 100 percent better but have improved. My prayers go out to you and I hope you feel better soon! Hugs
AnonymousJune 25, 2009 at 12:51 pm
I really like the “cool blue light”. I have always had trouble trying to relax my body item by item. When I start at my toes, I visualize my toe bones, tendons, muscles, nerves and sometimes my mind wanders to thinking about myelin, then it goes to damaged nerves, and then to pain. Or I will think about my calf, and get cramps. Or whatever. Sometimes it works, most times not.
One of my better focuses was on a single spot of light. I try to make it bigger, changing colors from yellow through red to blue, brightening my mind, releasing pain, and then allowing the light to slip down as I go to sleep. But it is so hard to stay focused on a single spot.
I really like the idea of a cool blue light moving through the body. I can function with the light and it will focus me away from my body, but should completely involve me, and give it a process, which is what I need to get distraction from the pain. If the body doesn’t work, I might try sending the blue light through my flower garden, maybe.
I like the idea a whole lot !!
I am aslo going to dedicate some time daily for music. I have forgotten how much I enjoy it and can release into the music.
Now for the work. I’ll stay in touch pain wise here.
AnonymousJune 25, 2009 at 3:47 pm
Hey Dick S! I too liked Julie’s idea about the Blue Ray of Light. Think I will try both of them at the same time the music and the light.
I actually missed the 60’s,70’s and 80’s era! We sure didn’t have as much violence back then. Crime rates were less and families were families back then.
Since you are from NC. Not sure if you ever heard of a Beach called Minnesott and Oriental NC. They were both close to Havelock, NC. My parents had a trailer down there and every summer and weekend we went to that beach! I had a blast in my childhood days. Some of the best memories I ever had since I got robbed of illness when I reached 29 years old. Was getting sick way before then but not hit bad until 29.
I used to walk that beach every morning and pick up sea shells and sharks teeth! I probably would break my next now trying to walk in that sand! LOL! It was a much quieter beach than Atlantic Beach but only if you wanted it that way!!:D
I stayed in more trouble down there at that beach in my childhood it was no joke! Drank my first bottle of Boone’s Farm Wine. Yum yum~ That stuff tasted like juice. But it gave a punch back a few hours later! I saw my first porcelian God that night! And my dad grounded me for months! 😀 😀 😀
To this day the smell of wine makes me gag! LOL! Hugs
AnonymousJune 26, 2009 at 12:33 am
Dick, have you ever tried biofeedback? I was taught it by a psychiatrist many years ago, for my migraines. It works well for nerve, muscle and other types of pain. It works along the same lines as Julie described her Cool Blue light. Julie, it sounds like you are really in tune with your body-I felt that light going through my body as I read what you typed. Where were you earlier today when I was sitting in the er with my chest pains?!;) (thats the only drawback to biofeedback-it doesn’t always work on chest pains that take the breathe away-can’t breath deep enough for feedback when you can’t take deep breaths)
I use biofeedback along with a cd of spoken meditation with the sounds of waves and seagulls in the background. It doesn’t always work but it doesn’t ever cause me any side effects or bad reactions.:D
AnonymousJune 26, 2009 at 11:27 am
I agree with Stacey. I did the hot/cold therapy during rehab. I placed my hands in hot water for 10 seconds then into cold water for 15 seconds. They called this a desensitizing therapy. It helped me a lot along with some other similar treatments. Hope it helps you also. God Bless
AnonymousJuly 3, 2009 at 10:31 pm
Dick-just checking in to see how you are doing. Have a question-are you able to golf? My late hubby and I golfed all over Michigan and South Carolina. This, of course, was pre cidp, but loved it so and being outside. I have down sized a lot, but still have my clubs and once this crazy 100 weather leaves, have thought about a driver range to start with. I guess I will find out by trying it……..just wondered if others have returned to golf-sort of a way to try and get my mind off my pain. Did the ebsom salts help? Which music did you try first?
AnonymousJuly 4, 2009 at 9:29 am
Unfortunately, serious golf has passed me by. I cannot drive through the ball like I did before. I used to be a Golf Pro, and losing that skill hurt. After hitting 300 yard drives and playing golf around par, I haven’t been able to convince myself that I could enjoy shooting 100.
As far as music, we have a great classical station, and a good Public Radio station. I have been enjoying classical orchestral music, and “The world Cafe” on NPR. I have also been dipping into some of the older stuff during the day.
The new pain med routine is helping. Although I am taking less pain medication, I am taking it 3 times a day instead of 2. I used to take 100mg 2x a day, now 60mg 3x a day. I don’t “run out” and I stay better longer.
The stupid factor still works. The stupider I am, the more I hurt. I have to really pay attention to how long I have weight on my feet. That makes the most difference.
Thanks for your concerns.
AnonymousJuly 4, 2009 at 4:18 pm
My story is much like yours, Dick. Came on slow over a long time then right before Hurricane Ike – bam – right between the eyes. Sigh. But the one thing I know for certain is that life is not for sissies as everyone has challenges – just different ones for different folks, so I don’t waste a moment wondering why ….
After 30 years of marriage I found out my husband had a secret life since he was 12 – which kept growing until … oh well, as my Russian grandmother would say, “B’nough!” of that subject … that’s been almost 3 years ago. But I feel it was preparing me for this challenge! And I learned a very BIG lesson about outlook through that experience. I really like your quote. Mine is “A glad heart makes a happy face” from Proverbs 15:13.
For some time now, pain is my constant companion. And I find that living alone can magify everything as I don’t have built in diversions.
But I also am determined to make the absolute best out of any situation I can. Until this hit me so hard, I was dancing 4 nights a week and having a blast! Love the West Coast Swing, Salsa, country and anything with a beat! Now I go maybe once a month for about 1 – 2 hours after getting ready by taking hydrocodone and having my best friend drive …
I was very high energy and am finding a big challenge in sitting still. I understand what you are saying about feeling better and doing something you know isn’t good for you, but doing it anyway. So I decided not to do that anymore. I try to save as much as I can of my energy and focus for work, church and play and accept the help that is offered me and pay someone to do the rest or ignore it. Have to find pleasure where it presents itself. I love to garden, now I pay someone to weed for me and sit in my garden reading a book (which I also love to do).
So I had to do several things to continue finding pleasure in living – get this awful pain under better control and change my focus. I have to work full time, so my doctor made a pain mgt cocktail for me. Right now I take 4mg Tizanidine at breakfast and 4 mg again at lunch, 300mg Gabapentin at dinner, then 600mg at bedtime plus 50mg Nortriptyline and 1mg Klonopin, with 10mg Hydrocodone as needed. When I wake up, think Johnny Depp in Pirates of the Caribbean 2 steps forward, 3 sideways, etc!!
At times, the pain is still unbearable, so now my doctor is trying me on Namanda. It was developed in Europe specifically for neuropathy pain. However, it was found to also slow down the progression of Alzheimer’s (so maybe the side effect will be good!), so that is all our FDA has approved for its use. But my doctor works miracles with my insurance and I started it last week and feel a slight improvement. It will take 4 weeks before I’m at full dose and then, if it’s working, my Dr will start weaning me off everything else.
I have 2 days of IVIG every 4 weeks and also have physical therapy 3 times/week – mostly stretching that seems to help a great deal. My doctor also gave me a prescription to get my hot tub repaired (ins didn’t pay, but Uncle Sam acknowledges …) and so I spend an hour or two every night under the big Texas sky while the bubbles and heat reduce my pain significantly. I even have a TV out there some nights!
Inside my house, I also have a massage/heat pad for my back and 4 heating pads rolled up like tubes (held together with rubber bands) to use on each arm/leg. Helps significantly. Last time my daughter was home from a visit, she bought me a power strip so I can plug all 5 devices in at one time – it’s too funny to look at but works oh so good!
I also am on a B complex from Wellness Support Network called “Nerve Support Formula” that is also making a big difference. I feel a big difference between when I’m taking and when I forget to order more (hey – maybe the Namanda will help that!!). I am very careful with my diet and use the recommended vitamins and supplements from the book, Nutrients for Neuropathy. I can tell a difference when I get lazy in this area.
So that’s what I do for pain, which still isn’t always enough … and so to change my focus, I have two journals I’m keeping – one is a praise or thanksgiving journal and one is a humor journal. Everyday, I can find something to be thankful about … and so I write it down and read when I feel down. Additionally, it’s a good thing I like sitcoms, because I am one right now! This is long enough because I was trying to address pain, but sometime I will share some stories from my humor journal …
Hope you find something useful in my ramblings and the read was worth your time!
AnonymousJuly 7, 2009 at 8:32 am
I really like the Proverb. Glad heart and happy face.
I wish I could use heat better. I feel great while I am in the tub, but the next day I am negatively affected.
I love a morning tea with a tea bag, plus spearmint, peppermint, bee balm and St john’s wort. I grow the herbs at home, and have the tea most mornings. I have a pitcher that makes a quart, and I spread it out all morning long. It is quite relaxing.
Thanks again for the help
AnonymousJuly 7, 2009 at 3:51 pm
I dont have alot of physical pain…I did but now I dont. I dont know if that’s a good thing.
I have alot of pain in my heart. I struggle with what is happening to me and so often pretend that it isnt. Funny how all the pretending can slap me in the face when I walk….but, I still pretend. I cant quite say, OK…I am the way that I am and I’m happy, b/c I’m so not.
I have family issues like many do….with a sister that dis-owned me when my Mom died. I have issues with a step daughter that hates me and my son. Step parenting isnt for sissies and I can see how and why blended families fail more so than the average married couple. It doesnt matter how much you love your spouse…kids can put a wedge in there…step kids even more so. I try. That’s all I can do. Sometimes it takes a toll…but, I have no choice. I love my husband beyond words…it’s all part of the package.
What I do to get rid of pain in my HEART is everything I like to do. One thing is planting flowers. I noticed you said you grow your own herbs…I recently purchased and planted ST John’s wort. Should be some very pretty yellow flowers but I wondered if they’d ever be of any use and if so, how and what would I do ?
I’m glad to hear things are just a bit better. I’m on day two of ivig…the home health care nurse quit, things are a mess but I need my ivig…the nurse they sent is new, she’s ok…I just dont know her very well yet.
I know I needed the ivig…major fatigue.
take care Dick,
AnonymousJuly 9, 2009 at 1:37 pm
Dick S – I have been on the Namanda a little over a week now and the pain is going down daily. I’m so excited I had to “test drive” my new pain meds last night by going grocery shopping! That has been my biggest challenge in staying independent – pushing a shopping cart or even driving one of the electric ones has caused great pain for days after and pretty much uselesness of my hands/arms for several days. I felt so good last night, I made a second trip around the store just because I could!!!! Wanted to provide an update … can’t wait to see how I will feel in another couple of weeks when I’m at full dosage level!!!!! Also want to see how I do as my Dr brings down my other pain meds as this one increases. But I have to say, I’m more encouraged than I’ve been in a year!
Stacy – so sorry to hear about the pain in your heart. I know I had to go through a mourning process to come to terms with this illness. Just seems like I was picking myself off the ground from my 30 year failed marriage when this hit me … sigh. Had to change my attitude once again! All I can tell you is I have great faith that this life is only a prelude for the one to come. My praise/thankfulness journal was hard to start, but once started it’s an essential part of my journey and now I can’t quit! One of my friends was on a lot of anti-depression meds and started the thanksgiving journal and is now off all the meds. I will NEVER give up on getting better – but I know my attitude has a lot to do with my healing. So like you, I look for those things that bring me pleasure. Thank you so much for sharing your heartaches – you are in my prayers.
AnonymousJuly 11, 2009 at 12:43 am
I went to Pain Mgmt clinic yesterday. They messed up my appointment time, or maybe booked too many patients, or maybe forgot about me. In either event I waited over an hour past appointment time. I could handle the wait, but when others who arrived after me got in before me….
Amazingly, after I made mention of the situation to the office, I got right in and was seen immediately. I told the Doc about it and he thanked me for saying so, and that there was some turnover in the office. Oh well…
The upshot is, my pain meds are down, and I am trying to deal better with less. I take morphine and percoset. Both are bad for long term use. I want my head as clear as possible.
After that, I went to pay my kids college bill. We drove there (Community College) and went in. (pouring rain). They were doing construction and had to park pretty far away for me. The walk in was probably 2 football fields. Paid and got done. Walking out, they wouldn’t let me out the same door I walked in. There was construction and they said it wasn’t safe. I tried. they still said no. I had to double back (another football field). I just couldn’t make it out to the car in the lot.
Then I went to Sam’s for shopping. I intended to use a scooter. They had none. They were either out of order(3) or in use (the rest). My son was with me, I decided to try to do it. Bad choice.
I got home, took pills, sat down. Hurt badly today. Maybe better tomorrow.
Anyhow, Stacey, the St Johns Wort. I have a screen metal mesh “ball” that I put the herbs in and then stick it int the water. I guess you could put some in a coffee filter and dunk that. I also use a regular tea bag to get a better flavor. If I have flowers, I use 2 plus a fruit seed. If I am out ot flowers, I use four leaves, torn up. I let the concoction sit for 15 minutes in hot water. If it gets too cool, I reheat for drinking. Sugar to taste. It does work as a calming agent. I seem less stressed on days I remember to take tea. I didn’t take tea yesterday…….
I have got to believe that Chronic Pain and depression go hand in hand..
Chronic disease, family stresses and depression.
I can tell you that I have spent more time being emotionally spent in the past three or four years than in my previous lifetime. It is hard, I agree.
AnonymousJuly 11, 2009 at 3:47 am
I’m glad my pain meds don’t cause my mind to be fuzzy. The pain patch is a good choice for me. It’s a constant level of drug directly into my system for 72 hours.
When I was taking Methadone I felt fuzzy.
I find the IVIG makes me feel crummy/down in the dumps the day afterwards. My body fights that drug but it does help so very much.
The next day is another day gone. Usually in bed.
I surprised myself today and planted a few more delightful flowers. My therapy is gardening and in winter I plant lots of Pansies.
Isn’t it amazing how many folks now use the store scooters?
I love the ones at Lowe’s cause they really go fast””’
AnonymousJuly 11, 2009 at 11:08 am
I’m on nortriptyline, tizanidine, klonopin, nortriptyline and hydrocodone. With all that, the pain at times could still be relentless. There was a period of about 4 months where I cried daily. I have to work as my potential disability income isn’t enough to support me and I live alone. I run a highly technical team and have to be on my toes as most of them hold mutilple masters (I have an MBA). We (my doctor and I) have tried numerous combinations of various things to knock down my pain level. Nothing’s worked until now … for the past two weeks I’ve been on Namenda and every day my pain level goes down! I am so encouraged as this is the best I’ve felt ALL year!!! Next week my dose goes up and we start weaning me off all the other meds. My doctor believes this might be the only one I need with hydrocodone on demand on those days I overdo. I’ve read that neuropathy pain is some of the hardest to manage as most traditional pain meds don’t affect/block nerve pain. This has been my personal experience. There have been times I’ve had so much in my system I do believe I could stick a fork in my face and not feel that but still had that deep intense horrible pain. Namenda (memantine HCI) was developed for nerve pain in Europe. It helps promote normal glutamatergic activity in the brain. Glutamate is the major signaling chemical in nature and is used for conveying messages from nerve to muscle. It is mainly present in the central nervous system, brain, and spinal cord where it plays the role of a neuronal messenger. The Namenda helps regulate this activity and is significantly reducing my pain. Well – y’all can read up on glutamate and how important it is … I’m just totally sold on this already!
Here in the US it is used for Alzheimers … so I’m hoping for a double benefit (better memory – LoL!!!). I’m just so excited about the results so far, I can’t help but put it out in this forum in case someone else wants to get their doctor to let them try it. I’ve been on this journey to control pain for almost a year now and this is the very best!
Good luck to eveyone.
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