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I am getting my first appointment arranged at Yale Med Center’s Neuro Clinic. They should be getting back to me real soon. On the downside of things, I will update you all on the current situation previously mentioned here. Last week I suffered a flareup of pain and weakness in my right side, almost exactly like a flareup on the left side a month before. The right side is colder to the touch. I’m dragging my right leg some, especially when my microscopic level of stamina runs out. I slept all the time for the first few days after it happened. Now, since yesterday, I stumble more when walking and even occasionally veer sharply to one side or the other and nearly fall. In response to this, they want me to get a vascular study worked up by a cardiologist. My kids are really worried seeing me like this and every time I have nearly fallen they have been there to see it. I don’t hide this sort of thing from them. That’s not what bothers me. When I nearly fall, I need their help to go sit down someplace. I am grateful that I sowed enough love that they are paying it back right now. I haven’t had this diagnosis very long, but relying on my children’s help like this hurts me. I don’t resent it. I guess it is as simple as being their dad and having them do so much to take care of me. It isn’t pride, I just don’t want them to have to do it. It’s a jagged little pill to swallow. Just venting and having a bad day. Thanks for all the advice everyone.