Reply To: No Recovery For Some

September 23, 2013 at 4:57 pm

After coming very close to death before receiving treatment, I was thrilled just to be able to talk to my family, feed myself, etc. again – you get the idea. Once I was more coherent, my youngest daughter asked me a very important question:

“Mom, how are you going to recreate yourself?”

Since my life had bottomed out, I had the opportunity to rebuild it the way I wanted it, starting from scratch on every level. This was a life-changing question for me and I realized that I had the power to make my life good or sink it even further.

I did not have the type of epiphany that people do in movies but I was given a second chance at life and I did not and do not want to waste it. I want it to be as good as I can make it. Sure, I’m still working through a few limitations but I’m dating again, getting out a little and visiting, cooking for myself as often as I have energy to do so. In other words, I still have fun and am grateful to be alive to walk my daughter down the aisle next week. (By the way, I’m the mom)

If Hedley chooses to throw in the towel, that is certainly his/her right to do so. It’s just not my choice. I suppose I can understand feeling defeated, I get tired of it sometimes. But reminding myself of how far I’ve come and the fact that I almost wasn’t here at all, is usually enough to get me positive again. So, perhaps Hedley will re-find some happy purpose to life that keeps one going. I hope so. If not, no words will sway him/her from a negative and unhappy course. What a sad thought.