I know its hard
Valerie I just want you to know that my heart goes out to you!!! Please do not give up! I will keep you in my prayers I know that sometimes it does not help to hear that but it can bring some comfort. I am glad you can let us know how you are feeling. Do you have some one close by that can spend some time with you so you are not alone? We all know some of what you are feeling yet it is still different for us when we are at different places at different times. I send you my love and hope.