[FONT=”Microsoft Sans Serif”]ok, glad you did– i guess that’s standard practice but you never know right?

i think too that simply having a life-changing illness will in and of itself cause a degree of stress to the psyche that may affect one’s focus– don’t you think? i know for me that i was very pre-occupied with my dx, in fact it was all i could think about for a long while…

thanks for asking about my 1st day back to work– yikes, it was a long one. up at 4:30– had to qualify at the range at 7:00 then to the academy for training– till 6:30 pm! six hours of the training was grappling, take-downs, hand-cuffing and the like… eh. but all went well and i had no problems– thanks 😉

i’ll sleep well tonight, and i hope you do too..[/FONT]

Hi Wendy welcome to the unique group of wonderful people, I’m new here too. Rest is your best friend right nowI found that I could do everything as usual in 1 day at a slower pace, but the next day I was drained so I watched movies and slept. Listen to your body truly it sounds weird but it really knows when its tired.As it goes youll have more good days then day and as for depression well I think we’ve all been there, but we are the chosen ones for some strange reason and this to will pass. Do what you think what you can do and start from there,yes the nights are hard the body goes into recovery mode and the legs are the worst but as you said they are recovery from all this. And at 51 I’m still trying to figure out what “normal” is, to me its what you make it lol. Anyway glad to hear your doing so well and just keep on going and when your tired smell the roses they are quite lovely Brenda:p