Hi Sonny! Nice to meet you on the forum! And so sorry to hear that you are feeling so down and depressed. Any of us that have experienced illness will go through spells of depression. And it is very easy to worry about our futures.
I was diagnosed with Systemic Lupus when I was 33 years old and was very sick for 5 years with no diagnoses back then. I went through alot of depression fearing the unknown and what the future would bring me. I guess you can call me the cat with 9 lives for I have seen other diseases pop up besides Lupus and somehow I alway’s managed to survive the test of time.
One of the hardest things was worrying about my future. I still worry about my future, but we even have normal folks worrying about the same thing.
I see you mentioned that you were single! Could that be a factor as to why you are depressed? Feelings of being lonely or all alone.
In my years of living and I am not too much older than you. Just a few years! But I believe that everybody has a soul mate out there waiting for them. And have seen several people I know around your age that were single and found that perfect person in their 40’s and later got married. Alot of people in the early 40’s also experience divorce to then find that person they wanted in the first place. You are still young my friend and still have many years ahead of you. Keep looking and you shall find!
Life itself right now can be depressing but mainly because it’s hard on people today. When I get very depressed, I call it a Mind block time. A take whatever it is that is depressing me and just not think about it. Something I have been doing all weekend and have been keeping my mind occupied on other things.
I put up Christmas decorations, shopped some in Ebay. Went out to my garden and watered my plants. Anything that you enjoy doing is a good time to focus on and it will help relieve your depression. The future though is something we never know what will bring us. 10 years from now, you might be married and have children and everything you wished for in life came true. Or you could see bad health even far more worse than now! So we can’t foretale our futures and I really don’t try to think that far in advance. Take 1 day at a time. One minute at a time! Try to think positive thoughts and keep saying to yourself that you are going to get what you want in life no matter what obstacles come in your way. Enjoy what life brings you in every moment you have. Life is too short and for some of us we may see 90 years old while others may never see 50. I am not sure what you are experiencing with your depression. With me when I get depressed it’s usually triggered by something that is bothering me. My illness, something somebody said. A break-up with the boy friend.. but I am married now.. but that is one painful experience falling in love with someone and then they break up. Love can too be painful! Sonny! I’m pretty sure if we knew all why you are depressed many of us most likely would have some good advice for you. But the only thing I can do right now is send you a hug cyber hug your way and hope you cheer up soon! Hugs! Good luck Sonny! Ever need a friend to talk to email me in my PM’s! I will not let anything out you say! 😀 😉