complacent

Hello Donna, You almost sound like someone who has gone through a war with post trumatic stress syndrome, If I was in your boots ,I hope that I would be a little agressive in pursuit of my treatment. Sometimes we cant see the forest from the trees. I sense a feeling of helplessness.I mean no disrespect, you seem very smart. I have always thought if there is the will you will find a way. My post is only to encourage you to find a way to see a different doctor.
Ron