Istaroaz, you seem to be cheered up a bit since you started the thread…and that is good. IF you are worrying about how men will view you, that is normal. Most women do that..whether or not they are disabled. We worry about the smallest things…compared to men. Look at Sandra Bullock…she was perfect and Jesse ran around on her.Being perfect does not guarantee that one can keep a man happy. My wonderful therapist who I have had since my mother died and then the GBS…says that many of the people out there are damaged..I am guessing around 85%. So finding the right man like Cathie did is hard. Possible but not probable..in my humble opinion. I recently wrote to someone on line who had his doctorate and read the same books I did…but he had a controlling,narcissistic personality who, within seven days of emailing, was getting angry that I would not follow HIS orders. But his public persona was that he was a loving person whose last girl friend has MS and he carried her around.( Poor thing….she really was under his control.) So the grass may look greener on the other side of the fence, but that may be due to all the manure that is over there!!! ooops..did I say that???!